I can't believe it! Now i have to be the one to help he fend off those idiots. I hope my boyfriend will learn to,be more mature and stop looking up at someone who is vulgar as a role model,as someone who he can talk to): I am sure,i dont lack maturity like they do,I can write better then them,make him happy better then them(or is it the other way round?) Either way,I hope my boyfriend will be willing to erase them off his life soon if he want me to be happy. The nightmares i been having since that night he wanted to break off with me for them,is already killing me slowly inside. If this go on,I'm afraid i may commit suicide..

Why would'nt my boyfriend erase them from his life,wipe away my tears and kiss me and say he is sorry? I have no idea. Maybe he just does'nt love me as much as before..
Now,i can just cry silently and lonely in the dark every night.
Acting and smiling like there's nothing wrong but gripping the cover,and crying like a baby that had been abused. crying away my dear life(:

PS:baby,everytime i saw you talking to them,my heart is breaking over and over again):